Listen to the Wind

Today is such a windy day! haha. Good weather definitely makes me happy. =)

My heart relaxed when I felt the wind kissing me cheeks. It was such an amazing feeling. Serenity was all I felt. I was extra patient while waiting for my mom to pick me up from the train station, not the constant whining. For that instant, i was really grateful for all the wonderful creations of God. The sun, the blue sky, the trees.


God is like wind. We can't see Him but we definitely feel Him. Just like how the wind brushes your cheeks. You'll feel nothing but peace.


P.S. Take some time off and just lie on the grass and look to the sky. You'll find life is Beautiful. =)

My Refuge

I'm clinging on to God. No matter what happens. I will not run away. I will not doubt Him. He will help me through.


Matthew 6:33

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

That's exactly what i'm going to do.

I need Him. More than anything.

=)

Get a Life!

I came across a new TV program ' street Hollywood' a few days ago. Basically, it shows you how the annoying paparazzi ambush those poor celebs. They showed a few clips like how they ambush Jessica Alba and etc. However, i was quite livid when they showed one clip on the richest celeb who is under 25, Ashley Olsen. This is what happened :

A whole bunch of guy papa. crowding around Ashley's car waiting for her to get in. When she started walking towards her car, all the reporters started snapping photos of hers. One reporter then shouted: " You dress just like your sister." They are, of course, referring to Mary-Kate. I didn't feel comfortable when i heard that knowing that both of them have different fashion sense. Then the next ques came. " Who's thinner? You or your sister?" I was really pissed when i heard that. How could they be so cruel? They purposely bring out the weight issue knowing very well that Mary-Kate suffers from eating disorder. Unfortunately, this is not the end. When Ash was about to get in the car, of them commented: "You look HORRIBLE!" and they started laughing among themselves.

After hearing all these, all i could say is 'Oh dear!' No one would like to be compared their sisters. Not even twins. No one is ever duplicated in every detail. Do all the fame and glamour worth all these? I wonder. Hmm.. what could have going through Ash's mind when she heard all those? Would she actually look into the mirror and questions herself as well? No wonder celebs are under such great pressure. Hope she's strong enough to withstand all those criticism. If only the world shows more kindness. If only..

What a night!

Last night, I had done something that i have never tried before and i had loads of fun. It was a whole new experience for me.

I went for street evangelism with my CG members at Sri Petaling pasar malam. Haha. Eventhough i have been a Christian for almost 4 yrs now, it was my first time doing so. Therefore, i was pretty nervous. We prayed on our journey there.

At first, I was worried of not knowing what to say but my leader encouraged us to go with faith. So, i took that leap of faith. Suprisingly, words just started flowing through my mouth smoothly. It was my first time being so eager to share the Good News to others. Everything went quite well although some rudely rejected us. I even got some contacts myself.

We went for mamak session later on. We joked around and were just having fun. It was the first time i felt so comfortable with CG members. Now, i know why God transferred me to my current CG. I feel so loved and i am beginning to love my CG .

I am amazed by God once again. How can i not stick to Him?

Ooo La La! My 1st meal

I just had my lunch. It is not just any lunch. It is THE LUNCH. Haha. Fine. It is the first time i cook my own meal. Hey, it's a pretty big achievement for me considering the fact that,

1. My mom actually allows me to cook and,
   
2. Allows me to use her kitchen ( my mom never let anyone touch her kitchen, it's her territory)
   

So, what did i cook? I cooked something simple and something that she has never cooked before- Olio Spaghetti. I had tried cooking it with my friend many months ago but she did most of the cooking. I just prepared the ingredients.

This time round, I did everything from A-Z. Ok, maybe not everything because i still couldn't get my hands on cleaning the prawns. But other than that, i did everything. From the cutting of garlic to the frying of the spaghetti. Haha. I had 80% control of the kitchen because you see, this recipe is new to my mom so she couldn't butt in. For the first time, i am in charge of the kitchen. Haha. This meal turned out to be successful and hmm.. even my mom said that it's tasty and i believe she meant it.

It sure looks yummy to me! haha. The best is yet to come! and it's true that your own cooking does taste better. =)

Yummy!

Everyone has been talking about it. I can hear them say it everywhere i go. Those words are stuck in my mind for this whole week...

Those magical words are none other than KRISPY KREME. haha. Finally, it has arrived after many people long awaited it. Wait! Stop! Do you know what Krispy Kreme is? It is the rival of the famous Big Apple and J.Co. Yes! U got it right. It is a donut shop. It has opened its first shop in Malaysia in Time Square on the fateful 27 April.

Many people line up for it just so to be the first customer to get a whole year supply of it. From what i heard, the first customer lined up for more than 70 hours, meaning he actually camped in Times Square. Go figure. At first thought, it sounds ridiculous and nuts but as you come to think of it, it's quite worth it considering the fact that u get free supply of Krispy Kreme donut for a FULL WHOLE YEAR. Let me do the math, assuming one dozen per week and 52 weeks a year and 28 bucks per dozen. So,

52*12= 625 & 52*28=1456

You will actually get 625 donuts worth 1456 bucks for FREE! What a deal!

My college is going crazy about it. Even me. Everywhere i turn, i see them carrying at least a box of Krispy Kreme. Even Mr. Micheal bought 2 boxes himself. My classmate, Kevin actually went around taking donuts order from us. Haha. And he bought more than 50 donuts that day. I had my first real taste of the donut on that day. It was the original flavour, donut coated with sugar. I could feel the sugar melting in my mouth after my first bite. The bread was soft..yummy... and... umm.. it was definitly sweet. Too sweet perhaps. Still, it was yummy. Someone with sweet tooth will definitly enjoy it. So, do garb one if you haven't tasted it.

Now, this week is the Krispy Kreme Fever. By next week, I bet everyone will be sick of it. By another week or so, it will be long forgotten. Lol. =)

LOL

Laughter is the BEST medicine!

Here's a little something i qouted from a book i read today:

" It take a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, an entire life time to forget them."

So simple yet so true.

Just a little more understanding

After keeping almost a month of silence, i think it's time to finally talk about it. To give my account of the issue.

I cannot say that those three months weren't happy at all. We had our blissful moments. But every relationship has its own set of problems. Problems that third parties cannot understand and will never understand. Many asked me about the reason of breaking up. I will now tell you. I don't feel the way he feels for me and my priority is not in relationship. Why then did you accept him in the first place? Many continue with this question. I was just merely giving that relationship and myself a chance. Is that wrong in any sense? i don't think so. But things just didn't work out the way we thought.

I never thought that it will end so fast. Just 3 months and it's gone. I dare say that i did try to work things out. i tried to sacrifice more. I tried until the point that i cannot take it anymore. You might think that i am cruel but believe me i did try very hard. But i can't fool myself or him. I can't go on pretending that things will work out themselves. We were both suffering in that relationship. It is unfair for the both of us. Why go on in that case?

I am not trying to gain sympathy by blogging all these. I'm just wanna give my account of this issue. I loathe explaining to people about it and later see them giving me the accusing look. I just wish people will just listen and not judge this issue. You can give me support and consolation but nothing more than that. Don't blame only me for whatever that had happened for relationship is a two way thing.

I may look like i am taking it very easily but trust me, i am not. Not because i regretted breaking up but because of the effect of the relationship. I felt like i did the right choice. but why does it feel so hard? I didn't make my decision hastily. i seeked advice from my close friends. I am fully aware of the consequences. One of them is losing some of my friends. I thought i might be able to handle it but it's harder than i thought. I am rather angry that he left me to face all this issue alone. He might be sad and all but he doesn't have to face our friends, doesn't have to explain.

No one really knows what happened between us. What he did had shaken me. No one can understand the fear i am having. Even i can't explain it myself. I believe there's a day that we can reconcile, to be friends again. But i just can't bring myself to do it just yet. I believe God has a pan for this too. I believe we both learnt something for this relationship and it's not something that we can forget it easily. We have to learn to let go of the hurts and pain. we can only learn through it with God. Only Him can bring us out of these hurts. These has definitly makes me stronger.

I dislike being in this state where my mind always drift away and being emo. I hate it. i hate crying about it and i just wish people will be a little bit more understanding. My dad told me i have to face the consequences and the responsibilty in this. Most importantly, he reminded me that i can't make a decision that pleases everybody. The world doesn't revolve around this and life still goes on. For him, i wish he is able to get out from the past, forgive me and move on. With sincerity i wish.

The Last Polar Bears by Harry Horse

One thing which i really like about this book - The Last polar Bears, is the way the story is written and the great illustration work. This book is written for children and how i came across this book is another story. But what i want to say here is the story behind this.To my suprise, the author and the illustrator is the same person.

I really enjoyed reading this story book for there are interesting characters. Like roo, a dog which is very human like. She can even talk, whine and complain. This story is about the adventure of a Grandfather and his dog, roo, to the Artic searching for the polar bears. Yea, the story is written for children so the storyline is rather simple. But the story ended abruptly. So the question that linger on my mind was did the grandfather die? my guess was he did. But i was determined to find out. So yesterday, i went online and searched. And I got more info than i intended.

Firstly, I found the autobiography of the author. Something that strucked me was that he died only last year at the tender age of 47. After doing more research, i found his blog. He is dead but his friends continuing update his blog. The next thing i know is that he died with his wife. Weird i thought. At first i wanted to leave comment and ask about how he died. But decided to find it myself.

Here comes my discovery. His wife was suffering from Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and hers was rather aggressive. It's a terminal illness. So, he was desperate for help and stuff like that. In the end, he killed his wife and himself and he made quite a headline in Shetland. Some news reported it as suicide pact, saying they both commited suicide so that they could die together. kinda like Romeo and Juliet. But later on, one news reported saying that he actually stabbed his wife 30 times. Ouch! He did said to the press that if his wife dies he will go with her as well. That explains things. He loved his wife too much so he didn't want to get separated with his wife. So he killed his beloved and himself.

Whoa! I really found more than i had in mind. So, is it a murder or suicide pact? Judge it for yourself. What i know is that, he has really interesting background and he wrote one of the nicest stories.

Oh yeah, the grandfather did die. My guess was correct. In the midst of finding his background i found one line which said that he wrote this story for children who is coping with loss. So that explains. I highly recommend this story. It's really funny and yet interesting. Plus roo really existed. An Art work i will call it.

Blackheads!

Mind you. The incident below didn't happen today. I am only jotting it down today due to certain reasons.

I am that kinda girl that opposed to squeezing zits. I will just apply pimple gel on my zits and hope that it will miraculously disappear the next day. Of course, this never happen. And lately, i have been getting lots of blackheads mainly due to STRESS.

There's this rather obvious blackhead which has been staying on my nose for months but i do nothing about it. I am hoping that it will disappear by itself. But it doesn't.

There's this very close friend of mine-Jasmine who will squeeze every zits of hers. And surprisingly, it leave her no mark.

There was this day, i went to look for Jazz and even before i spoke to her, she muttered something and dragged me to the toilet. Only then i know, she wanted to do a me big favour which is squeezing my blackheads.

I protested but she didn't care. She pulled me into the cubicle and started her "great" work. After all the yelling (me) and scolding (jazz). She happily released me when she managed to squeeze two out. She was rather annoyed because she was unable to squeeze the most obvious one.

After i went back to class, I was talking to Manda and Nette when she suddenly popped in and started telling them her "great" work. Soon, they were all discussing about my zits right in front of the other classmates. they were excited. Haha. they sounded superficial at this point but really they are the most down- to-earth people i have ever met.

Well, i definitely felt embarrassed at that time yet loved at the same time. How many friends of yours will actually take the effort to squeeze your B.Heads? (Mind you, it was not a pretty sight and easy job.) She did. She doesn't want any of my BH to leave permanently on my face.

Aww...how sweet does that sound...

Blog?

I HATE reading blogs. I HATE writing blog even more.

The reason I'm creating this blog is for the sake of my dear English Literature teacher, Miss Siow Ye Leng . She wants us to create a blog. (If you're reading this miss Siow, you should be glad that I am doing it for you ^^ )

As a English Literature student, you should express yourself. That was what she said.

The other reason is that i don't have time to update my blog. I hardly online as well.

You don't have to update it everyday, you only have to update it once a week.She said.

And I can't seem to get the Html right. Call me computer illiterate or whatever. I just can't seem to get it.

But, I am impressed with people who has nice and interesting blog. Like Kenny Sia's and his oh-so-dramatic life. ( He's a very famous blogger in Malaysia.)

So here am I writing my first post. Well, that's life i guess. Ha-ha. Hope it isn't as sucky as i think.