Listen to the Wind

Today is such a windy day! haha. Good weather definitely makes me happy. =)

My heart relaxed when I felt the wind kissing me cheeks. It was such an amazing feeling. Serenity was all I felt. I was extra patient while waiting for my mom to pick me up from the train station, not the constant whining. For that instant, i was really grateful for all the wonderful creations of God. The sun, the blue sky, the trees.


God is like wind. We can't see Him but we definitely feel Him. Just like how the wind brushes your cheeks. You'll feel nothing but peace.


P.S. Take some time off and just lie on the grass and look to the sky. You'll find life is Beautiful. =)

My Refuge

I'm clinging on to God. No matter what happens. I will not run away. I will not doubt Him. He will help me through.


Matthew 6:33

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

That's exactly what i'm going to do.

I need Him. More than anything.

=)

Get a Life!

I came across a new TV program ' street Hollywood' a few days ago. Basically, it shows you how the annoying paparazzi ambush those poor celebs. They showed a few clips like how they ambush Jessica Alba and etc. However, i was quite livid when they showed one clip on the richest celeb who is under 25, Ashley Olsen. This is what happened :

A whole bunch of guy papa. crowding around Ashley's car waiting for her to get in. When she started walking towards her car, all the reporters started snapping photos of hers. One reporter then shouted: " You dress just like your sister." They are, of course, referring to Mary-Kate. I didn't feel comfortable when i heard that knowing that both of them have different fashion sense. Then the next ques came. " Who's thinner? You or your sister?" I was really pissed when i heard that. How could they be so cruel? They purposely bring out the weight issue knowing very well that Mary-Kate suffers from eating disorder. Unfortunately, this is not the end. When Ash was about to get in the car, of them commented: "You look HORRIBLE!" and they started laughing among themselves.

After hearing all these, all i could say is 'Oh dear!' No one would like to be compared their sisters. Not even twins. No one is ever duplicated in every detail. Do all the fame and glamour worth all these? I wonder. Hmm.. what could have going through Ash's mind when she heard all those? Would she actually look into the mirror and questions herself as well? No wonder celebs are under such great pressure. Hope she's strong enough to withstand all those criticism. If only the world shows more kindness. If only..

What a night!

Last night, I had done something that i have never tried before and i had loads of fun. It was a whole new experience for me.

I went for street evangelism with my CG members at Sri Petaling pasar malam. Haha. Eventhough i have been a Christian for almost 4 yrs now, it was my first time doing so. Therefore, i was pretty nervous. We prayed on our journey there.

At first, I was worried of not knowing what to say but my leader encouraged us to go with faith. So, i took that leap of faith. Suprisingly, words just started flowing through my mouth smoothly. It was my first time being so eager to share the Good News to others. Everything went quite well although some rudely rejected us. I even got some contacts myself.

We went for mamak session later on. We joked around and were just having fun. It was the first time i felt so comfortable with CG members. Now, i know why God transferred me to my current CG. I feel so loved and i am beginning to love my CG .

I am amazed by God once again. How can i not stick to Him?

Ooo La La! My 1st meal

I just had my lunch. It is not just any lunch. It is THE LUNCH. Haha. Fine. It is the first time i cook my own meal. Hey, it's a pretty big achievement for me considering the fact that,

1. My mom actually allows me to cook and,
   
2. Allows me to use her kitchen ( my mom never let anyone touch her kitchen, it's her territory)
   

So, what did i cook? I cooked something simple and something that she has never cooked before- Olio Spaghetti. I had tried cooking it with my friend many months ago but she did most of the cooking. I just prepared the ingredients.

This time round, I did everything from A-Z. Ok, maybe not everything because i still couldn't get my hands on cleaning the prawns. But other than that, i did everything. From the cutting of garlic to the frying of the spaghetti. Haha. I had 80% control of the kitchen because you see, this recipe is new to my mom so she couldn't butt in. For the first time, i am in charge of the kitchen. Haha. This meal turned out to be successful and hmm.. even my mom said that it's tasty and i believe she meant it.

It sure looks yummy to me! haha. The best is yet to come! and it's true that your own cooking does taste better. =)

Yummy!

Everyone has been talking about it. I can hear them say it everywhere i go. Those words are stuck in my mind for this whole week...

Those magical words are none other than KRISPY KREME. haha. Finally, it has arrived after many people long awaited it. Wait! Stop! Do you know what Krispy Kreme is? It is the rival of the famous Big Apple and J.Co. Yes! U got it right. It is a donut shop. It has opened its first shop in Malaysia in Time Square on the fateful 27 April.

Many people line up for it just so to be the first customer to get a whole year supply of it. From what i heard, the first customer lined up for more than 70 hours, meaning he actually camped in Times Square. Go figure. At first thought, it sounds ridiculous and nuts but as you come to think of it, it's quite worth it considering the fact that u get free supply of Krispy Kreme donut for a FULL WHOLE YEAR. Let me do the math, assuming one dozen per week and 52 weeks a year and 28 bucks per dozen. So,

52*12= 625 & 52*28=1456

You will actually get 625 donuts worth 1456 bucks for FREE! What a deal!

My college is going crazy about it. Even me. Everywhere i turn, i see them carrying at least a box of Krispy Kreme. Even Mr. Micheal bought 2 boxes himself. My classmate, Kevin actually went around taking donuts order from us. Haha. And he bought more than 50 donuts that day. I had my first real taste of the donut on that day. It was the original flavour, donut coated with sugar. I could feel the sugar melting in my mouth after my first bite. The bread was soft..yummy... and... umm.. it was definitly sweet. Too sweet perhaps. Still, it was yummy. Someone with sweet tooth will definitly enjoy it. So, do garb one if you haven't tasted it.

Now, this week is the Krispy Kreme Fever. By next week, I bet everyone will be sick of it. By another week or so, it will be long forgotten. Lol. =)

LOL

Laughter is the BEST medicine!

Here's a little something i qouted from a book i read today:

" It take a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, an entire life time to forget them."

So simple yet so true.

Just a little more understanding

After keeping almost a month of silence, i think it's time to finally talk about it. To give my account of the issue.

I cannot say that those three months weren't happy at all. We had our blissful moments. But every relationship has its own set of problems. Problems that third parties cannot understand and will never understand. Many asked me about the reason of breaking up. I will now tell you. I don't feel the way he feels for me and my priority is not in relationship. Why then did you accept him in the first place? Many continue with this question. I was just merely giving that relationship and myself a chance. Is that wrong in any sense? i don't think so. But things just didn't work out the way we thought.

I never thought that it will end so fast. Just 3 months and it's gone. I dare say that i did try to work things out. i tried to sacrifice more. I tried until the point that i cannot take it anymore. You might think that i am cruel but believe me i did try very hard. But i can't fool myself or him. I can't go on pretending that things will work out themselves. We were both suffering in that relationship. It is unfair for the both of us. Why go on in that case?

I am not trying to gain sympathy by blogging all these. I'm just wanna give my account of this issue. I loathe explaining to people about it and later see them giving me the accusing look. I just wish people will just listen and not judge this issue. You can give me support and consolation but nothing more than that. Don't blame only me for whatever that had happened for relationship is a two way thing.

I may look like i am taking it very easily but trust me, i am not. Not because i regretted breaking up but because of the effect of the relationship. I felt like i did the right choice. but why does it feel so hard? I didn't make my decision hastily. i seeked advice from my close friends. I am fully aware of the consequences. One of them is losing some of my friends. I thought i might be able to handle it but it's harder than i thought. I am rather angry that he left me to face all this issue alone. He might be sad and all but he doesn't have to face our friends, doesn't have to explain.

No one really knows what happened between us. What he did had shaken me. No one can understand the fear i am having. Even i can't explain it myself. I believe there's a day that we can reconcile, to be friends again. But i just can't bring myself to do it just yet. I believe God has a pan for this too. I believe we both learnt something for this relationship and it's not something that we can forget it easily. We have to learn to let go of the hurts and pain. we can only learn through it with God. Only Him can bring us out of these hurts. These has definitly makes me stronger.

I dislike being in this state where my mind always drift away and being emo. I hate it. i hate crying about it and i just wish people will be a little bit more understanding. My dad told me i have to face the consequences and the responsibilty in this. Most importantly, he reminded me that i can't make a decision that pleases everybody. The world doesn't revolve around this and life still goes on. For him, i wish he is able to get out from the past, forgive me and move on. With sincerity i wish.